Out with the old, in with the new

(Poem)

If I have mastered anything its the way my soul feels when I breath hope into it.

Living although not easy comes with extraordinary possibilities.

I've tasted melancholy long before I ever tasted ice cream.

Milk from my mothers breast wasn't sweet enough

to make my salty childhood memories disappear.

I walked through shame that didn't belong to me.

Carried burdens around like babies,

too heavy for this small frame.

Too many times I've cried myself to sleep

weighing my sins against my sacrifices.

I don't like trauma but I swear she left her stench on me.

Spread her pessimism across my sheets.

So I cleansed myself in hyssop.

Made peace with my imperfections.

Told Satan he couldn't have my joy,

my mind, or my magic.

Told man that didn't mean me well

they couldn't stay.

No times for fake friends.

I like these real four good enough.

On this journey I've seen God through the cocoa eyes

of those that bathe in my womb.

Caught a contact high with my first passport stamp.

Put a match to every memory that made me feel unworthy.

Laid my soul bare in the crystal waters of the Cayman.

I know its easy to stay mad at the world for what you think it owes you,

but I rather ride the roller coaster with my hands extended to the sky.

Slow dance with the man that makes my heart skip a beat.

Drink Moscato on weekends, while binging on Netflix.

I know the rain will come.

That some days will taste more bitter that they do sweet.

But have you ever licked the sauce from Cafe Soho wings off your fingers?

Dance to Marley in a room full of strangers?

Hit the pause button on your life just to take in a sunset?

You see I've consumed more heaven than hell already.

So no worries to the guy that cut me off on my way to work this morning.

I forgave you before the light even turned green.